Life of Wishes

Ok, so last night I only got four hours of sleep (nothing unusal for me). I wake up and can't help but think. I thought about several things, mainly my future. Anyway I have always been one to wish. I seemed to be wishing for bigger and better. My dad would always say "wish in one had and s*** in the other and see which one fills up first". Now isn't it ironic that I "wish" my dad could say that again? Right now my wish is that I can find my passion in life. I feel that if I knew what I wanted to do, I mean something I ablsoulty love, than my life may be fullfilled and I would no longer need to live on wishes. Just some thoughts.

Ready to have my kids back

For the past week my girls have been out of town with their grandparents. I thought great, I'll have this whole week all to myself. I can go shopping, sleep in, and spend some good quality time with my husband ALONE. I did do all that. My mom and I took in the mall a couple of times. I think I slept in till around 9:00 everyday, and I got to go on a couple of "dates". But now I'm ready to be mom again. I miss having my girls around, even when they are in another room watching TV. They will be coming home tomorrow and I can't wait. I wonder if they miss me as much as I miss them?

Positive???

I am trying my hardest to be more positive with my whole out look on life and everything around me. I mean what don't I have to be positive about I have a wonderful husband and two beautiful daughters right? Right. But how can one be positive living in a world of hate, crime, and war? I am refering too two instances imparticular that are on my mind right now, I will explian.

The first one...
I live near Memphis Tennessee. For those of you that don't know what is going on about the Memphis Mayor "King" Willie Herrington I'll explain. This man should have never been elected in the first place, but somehow is going up for I think his tenth year re-election. Anyway it seems as though he is trying to segerate Memphis again (Black/White) what year are we in? come on. He has blamed the "white runned" meida, the news paper imparticular, for all his "problems". He has made comments about certian people being just like KKK bigots. I could go on and on about him, but lets look at Memphis as a city and what he has done to it. It used to be real nice. We had a nice amusement park, which is gone now, built a very costly, i'm sure, pyrmid, empty now, and even more recently built peabody place, which is still ok during the day, but don't go at night. Memphis, a city which could be a real nice place to live and tour seems to have been run into the ground by Harrington and his "thug" followers. How can i think positivly?

Second instance....
I had just read this past week in our local news paper about a twenty year old male who was fighting for our country become severaly injured by being shot point blank in the back of the head. Although this man survived he is on a ventilator, feeding tube, and permentaly blind. One would think that since this man was risking his life for the lives of everyone else in the the USA the US government would support him for the remaining of his life. Not the case here. This man's parents have used all their savings and their retirement to pay for all his treatments. How can I think positivly?

first blog

Ok, here I am trying this out for the first time. I have never been good with words or expressing my feelings openly (to other people rather than family), but I thought I would give it a try. I am not a good advice giver, but I can listen pretty well. I am a house wife with two beautiful daughters whom I absolutly adore. There is nothing more rewarding, in my opinion, than being a mother.

I want to thank Amy for being such an inspiration. You are awsome. You have inspired me in trying this out, along with other things in life.

Here it goes. Wish me luck, and hopefully you will be able to read my thoughts. Hopefully this will get me thinking more as well.